yesterday

My life you know my loneliness......I don't think of tomorrow, nor I want to talk about yesterday...but today I don't  want to feel oppressed.....

My life , my heart beats and feels the same like yesterday....if you can hear my heart  , I am  sure , you can make me feel great once again.....I have been waiting for you ..... tomorrow who knows ,you may not be there....but , today I want you to make my day ....

I know and I understand , you too are constrained but for one day you sure can redress and be my subsistence....

My life I cant stop myself from telling you that , I met him yesterday.....it was like a dream come true without a prudence... though I know every day is not the same but I will be grateful if you could  make my day as pleasurable as yesterday !

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Autumn and The Spring

                    
   


            On my knees , I am your patron ,       
                          an admirer ,
                 hold you in high regard !
             your blessings are my strength !
                 I abide by all your rules !
     To move according to your signal is my duty !
                  have no wish of mine !
                      Will live and die
               the way you want  me to !
       you have all my strings in your hand !
                 You own me ,I am yours !
        Which ever path you show is mine !
                      I promise to bear
            all the pain you confer on me ,
                         with a smile !
              Half way through my journey ,
             I have a question on my mind ,
     hope you wouldn't mind answering with a smile !
                  You are a perfectionist ,
                      Sun and The Moon ,
                      Ocean and The Sea ,
                    Autumn and The Spring ,
                  every creation of yours
             is a paragon of your perfection ,
               but where did you go wrong
                    when you created life  ?
                          every soul ,
                        every animal ,
                     every human being  ,
                     though beautiful
            suffers in one or the other form ,
                you are the master crafter ,
              you are the one and only one ,
  who is the master of this theatre and this theme ,
                              but
               why don't you recede pain ,
        and fill up the empty space with joy ,
                      that one seeks !
                                I
           truly don't want anything for me ,
                              but
              save me from sufferings
       sufferings of others ,watching them
                    my heart bleeds !                              

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anything for you....

like a ray , like a rising sun...     .come in to my life, when i open my eye...like a whiff of breeze , like  morning dew.....feel my heart gentle and soft ,sing a song for me my love, surprise me enough before i open my eyes....make my life a refrain that i wouldn't want to give up....

my desire to run , my desire  to fly........make my dream come true ...my desire to fly like a dove ,glide in the sky..when the morning comes wait for night....make my nights , longing for life...hold my hand be my oar....be my strength when i am low...be like an ocean that embraces the sea.....make my life worthwhile...that i wouldn't want to live without you...... 

 every  morning when i wake up ,when  i open my eyes ..... to see yo smile ,is the only desire.....admire me for who i am , ignore my fragility......and apprise my strengths  ....make my life worthwhile....don't quibble , be my adherent... is all i want from you and i can do any thing for you !

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an awekening call....

                                             
                       This piece of poetry is inspired by few lines from Bhagavad Gita

                                            
                                              My reasons my fears ,
                                   my thoughts that pierced my heart
                          were answered when I got an awakening call,
                                               I realised I was wrong
                                     all my worries are without cause .
                            unwarranted my fears , unfounded they are all !
                                      When my present is happening ,
                                          why should I regret my past ,
                                                           and
                                              worry about my future ?
                                                    What did i lose ?
                         What ever I have received  was received here ,
                                                  had nothing at all !
                              What ever I have given ,  was never mine !
                                 I produced nothing that got destroyed !
                                                       My worry
                                                          about
                                  who is gonna light my pyre ,is an inane thought ,
                                             do i care who is gonna cry
                                    My fright about death , a vapid thought !
                                  I am gonna die but my soul will remain alive !
                                      a phenomenon ,a metempsychosis
                                                   I can not deny !
                                My first cry of life,  had no apparel to hide !
                        My exit from life ,will be with empty hands as I arrived !
                              An awakening call , felt like sharing my thoughts !
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Saturday NIGHT (lyrics)

I blurred ..    ...I was  high..........the music was perfect last night ,when he caught my eye.............a perfect moment to rock when,the music was just right ..... the night of mania ,the Saturday night...hmmmm the Saturday night.....

He blinked , he twitched  ...... ......  ... he tried to speak through his eyes....he moved his springy body like a bird who could fly,"c'mon move with me"I heard him whisper and he held me tight ,on Saturday night ......hmmm Saturday night......

  he blew a whistle that changed my attire....I.couldn't move,nor I could  smile...I gaped, I squeezed my eyes, while he looked at me with a great desire and said ,"you look beautiful tonight" ... the music mania that night  ....on Saturday night !

I moved ....... I heard a flute ,the time moved faster than desired........... when I sink .....I think of that blink , ...when I move I think of the flute......... that changed my life and when I look at my new attire ............ I desire to bring back that beautiful night....the Saturday night !!

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two yards of terrain

                                                                        
                                     Few moments away from
                            being carried away by dust and storm !
                                   Here I lay silent in the dark ,
                                       In two yards of terrain
                                        in my resting ground !
                            Now am away from frenzied crowd !
                                 Far away from madding sound  !
                          The fancy garb I adorn , feels so warm !
                          Free and calm ,  fearless I have become !
                          Am on my way ,can hear eternal sounds !
                                         No tremors I face ,
                                         no more I frown !
                           Fragile I have become , lighter than air
                                         lost my aspect !
                  Few moments away from being carried by the soil !
              Few flowers you placed ,will be washed away by the storm !
                The fancy garb I adorn will remain buried in the ground !
                          My memories will fade in days to come !
                                         WONDER
                                   A QUEST I RAISE
              When my each fragment was raised from dust and storm
               my remains would  be rendered  to either ashes or flames
                how could the soil I was made from got carried away
                                  with glister and glaze
             WHY DID IT CRAVE FOR CONTENTMENT ALL LIFE
                    why couldn't it resist opulence,why couldnt it wait
                                     when it was aware of
                             THE ULTIMATE  TRUTH OF LIFE
                                            
                              TWO YARDS OF TERRAIN
                    The glister and glaze would be left behind !
                  
                      
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why dont you understand

      

 My love, i  wait for you to express your feelings for me ,why don't you understand...

My life, get to my soul...listen to my heart beat and you will begin to believe that wonders can be true..tonight look away from crowded streets and bare your heart to me...there may not be another chance ,why don't you understand....

My love , I do understand  your fears and prenotion , but  every thing is made to be broken you got to understand......did you hear the song bird on magnolia tree who just said ...."who knows this could be a turning point of  your life...have faith in yourself "

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oath

                 
                             
              Am a stranger,in a strange land ,
                      like a  juvenile ,
                    have no foresight ,
                     need your hand !
                     Am a wanderer ,
                       bewildered ,
                           lost ,
                     hold my hand !
                        Am novice ,
      don't understand the mystery of this land ,
       I seek permission to  know a secret
             now when I am in your land ,
                     your inspiration
           behind writing my predestination
        my oath to maintain secrecy stands !
                     Have faith in me ,
                    am not a ruffian  ,
                   am only turbulent ,
          am only a wanderer in this savage land
           my oath to maintain secrecy stands !
             The only recourse I am left with,
           is to learn the secret of your wand !
               I know you are wizard
              you have a magic wand
                     will not fight ,
                 will have no malice ,
           will accept your ordinance ,
                and bow my head ,
               once I have known
           the secret of your magic wand
  and my oath to maintain secrecy still stands !

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some low lying ground

                                           

At crossroads  I stand ,the decision is too hard ...A mile stone I see and I know the light is not too far !!

I pick up the threads and try to move ahead ......I tumble and fall , too narrow is the path that leads to the light on the other end !!

A journey without a friend , I lose all my strength....when i hear the magnanimous light say " pick up the threads, you are not too far" !!

My beaming eyes , now look at the other end....the mile stone though says " you are not too far" but I am surprised to see the light is farther than it seems !!

My life seems a bundle of surprising events.......It takes me on a high and when I feel positive in my mind....I hear a sound ,with a thud I am found on the ground !!

No mercy ,no sympathy I seek .....let me live like a ballistic , is now  all that I want  and am ready to go deep down ...pick up a spade and dig some low lying  ground ... a place for me to sleep where I can hear no sound ,nor see the light that I believe is false ! 

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with my smile

                                         
                                                         
                                                                  

                                        You like to write , the way you like!
                                                      To take pride,
                                                       is your right !
                                                  You are supreme
                                                 but I am your child !
                                               You gave me a mind,
                                              can be wicked at times !
                                           Now I made up my mind
                                                      I will not fight ,
                                                 I am sure I will find
                                                              a
                                         way to divert your attention ,
                                                    from this child !
                                                    May be I can
                                                tantalise your mind ,
                                                    with my smile !
                                                        Am sure
                                        you wont think of me all the while ,
                                                           but
                                               the enchanting smile !
                                                      And  if  I do
                                                        succeed ,
                                    I will make sure , you change my life !
                                              I know you are wise !
                                                        But I see
                                                             no
                                            reason , why shouldnt I try
                                                     to entice you
                                                    with my smile !
                                                         If I am
                                                 able to delude you ,
                                                     you are sure
                                                             to
                                                   write my destiny ,
                                                     the way i like !
                                          No matter how I endavour ,
                                         will leave no stone unturned ,
                                           to get away with my smile!
                                         Gonna be wicked this time !
                                            Am going to give it a try !
                                             Am detrmined this time !
                                              Hope you wont mind !
                                             Am left with no choice,
                                               but, to delude you
                                                        if i can
                                                  with my smile !
                              And  make you re-write my destiny the way i like !

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mockery

      

Life , in search of musk  I drift. .....propelled like a vagabond  ..... in search of  landing   ground

            I move like a butterfly ,dancing amo-ng the flowers ..... in spring !!!!

            Like a herring gull , in search of food and shelter... I expedite my voyage of uncertainty.........

            Please, try to understand my disarray ...... I am not asking for a preferential treatment but am prying for an answer................ from you for my morbidity.......................

            Though my mind is  in state of paramnesia, I am still not trying to unla-de my encumbrance on you

              but trying to find an elucidation for this mockery!!

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endless wait

                                                   
                                                     Wait  , my endless wait
                                                          naked my body ,
                                                        hacked to ground ,
                                               trying to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  you must,uncover my fate ,
                                                            naked i lay
                                                 for you , to heal my wounds ,
                                                             strayed ,
                                                               lost ,
                                                       need some light ,
                                                       show me the way ,
                                                        heal my soul ,
                                                        naked i lay,
                                                      on bare ground !
                                                      Don't go away ,
                                                     cast your sights ,
                                                    try to hear my sighs ,
                                                         my pride ,
                                                          my ego ,
                                                        everything ,
                                                     I lost on the way ,
                                                       need no bathe ,
                                                       my naked soul ,
                                                   showers of  sun shine ,
                                                      let it embrace
                                                            and
                                                  take away some pain !
                                                     My endless wait ,
                                                      for an embrace ,
                                                      take me home,
                                                      am now cold ,
                                                   left with no place ,
                                                  petite I have become ,
                                                        in front fate !
                                                            In
                                                     my fight to  rise ,
                                                         my hair
                                                          now
                                                         turned ,
                                               some silver and some grey ,
                                                     still no respite ,
                                               need you to  hold me tight ,
                                                   eyes, they gaze
                                                   through the dark ,
                                                          ears
                                              I try to hear a distant sound ,
                                                  echos is all i hear ,
                                                nothing is very clear ,
                                                     I lit a light ,
                                                in a secluded place ,
                                                need your favour ,
                                                 read out my fate ,
                                                         else
                                                  blow away the light ,
                                              I lit in a secluded place ,
                                            to distract your attention
                                                    for you to
                                                  pay attention ,
                                                         on
                                                    petite this life ,
                                                  frail  my frame ,
                                                 my endless wait !
                                            Pleasure would be mine ,
                                     if you passed by my secret place
                                                   where i lay
                                             naked and chaste ,
                                                          no
                                                  need to bathe ,
                                                          I
                                              left every thing behind
                                               for a little embrace !
                                                   
                                               
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oomph !

        one more attempt to compose lyrics , here it goes....        

                                                                                  

You swept me off my feet when you looked into my eyes....my heart skipped a beat when you came close ...didn't know where to hide from your eyes.. when I saw the oomph in you.

I felt my blood race through my body....and had no control when you sighed.....when I saw the oomph in you

 I trembled when you came , I simmered when you came ........  I looked away to hide what i felt in side...Iwas bubbling in pain , I fumbled when you asked my name....I trembled and looked away.

Often I think of you, when I was on my way to brines.....you came too close that I lost my senses ...I forgot who was I, and why was i going to brines.....when I saw the oomph in you.

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odyssey

                                                                                                    
 Lonely roads
Take me home
Am through with saga
Am through with pain
 I see no sunshine
I see no smiling face

 Take me home
Have no remorse
Here I wait
 In the  twilight
In search of sunshine
And  the moonlight
With a heart in grave pain

 Take me home
Need no frowns
 Like a wildfowl
I fly from place to place

 I seek some enshrine
A benign smile to light my voyage
 No melancholy when I am on  my way

 Want to hear the chimes
And see some silver light
Towards the end of odyssey
Towards the end of lonely roads
I heard..... one feels no pain.

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fire

                                                                                

I look at the daffodils and watch them  smile...I look at the flamboyant trees they have begun to touch the sky  .....I look at the dew gathered on leaves and realise , its onset of spring ....i close my eyes to feel the breeze so mild.

My gaze through the isle  leads me to empty wild and I realise..... you are no where , I lost you from my sights....... now when  I see every thing around me is on fire ....though empty inside but I feel so wild . 

 I  lost you , and now when am lonesome in awe inspiring spring  ..... .......I feel you should come back to me ....I wait for you in my dreams... I want you to hold me while I sleep....what an awesome feeling .

 I don't want to be deprived of this feel ...... I  feel so wild, with silence around me...when every thing around me seems to be on fire.

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"O" my dear life

             

                                 

                                                                 I wonder ,
                                                                who I am ,
                                                      where did I come from,
                                                 where and when I am gonna go ,
                                                                    who
                                                                 do I love,
                                                                who is this
                                                               who I  hate,
                                                           who do I belive in ,
                                                               who I dont,
                                                        who do I write about ,
                                                          my illusive world,
                                                             my thoughts ,
                                                              my dreams ,
                                                          all put together
                                                              force me ,
                                                         to contemplate
                                                      in my illusory world ,
                                                         my virtual love !
                                                             Is this,
                                                     how I am gonna go ?
                                                  The gloominess in mind ,
                                             painful have become my strides ,
                                                     try to read my stars ,
                                                     try to read my palms ,
                                                  at no conclusion, I arrive !
                                                           Will
                                                         go on ,
                                                  few mor years ,
                                                may be a decade ,
                                                         solace ,
                                              I can see is not in my fate !
                                                       but why,
                                               Where did I go wrong ?
                                                   What is my fault ?
                                             Why did you not choose
                                                     to cuddle me ,
                                  the way you do it with your loved ones ,
                                             And give me some respite ?
                                                     Am broken,
                                                       cant rise,
                                                  tears in my eyes,
                                                  have now dried !
                                                    Crave for life,
                                                   has now died !
                                                   My ambitions,
                                                     my desires,
                                           no more I am enticed by,
                                                  "O" my dear life !
                                                       Now
                                             when i have opined ,
                                                  least you care
                                                 for this li'll one ,
                                                   dont take
                                                no more time ,
                                               show me the way
                                               to exit "O"my life !
                                               Scattered my soul ,
                                                 bits and pieces
                                                 of my heart ,
                                                     now,
                                              need some rest,
                                                if i can find !
                                                 Let me go
                                                   now ,
                                                   but
                                                    a
                                        querry I shall make ,
                                    when we are face to face ,
                                         how could you
                                                 be ,
                                              at times ,
                                              ruthless
                                    "O" MY DEAR LIFE !

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